Au Revoir

It sucks, but I just keep having to remind myself that it's God's will. I have decided to leave Europe, and my team and go home. I have been in Paris for a week and I have experience great and beautiful things. I have been to the Eiffel Tower and Notre Dame twice, both very overwhelmingly beautiful places. I prayed around and in both areas, and really got the sense that Europe needs the Lord on a whole new level, along with the people here in this nation, it's intense, and kind of scary but so needed and it can happen, and it will with my team, but just not with me.


Being here this last week I have really thoughtfully, prayerfully considered and processed, with the help of my leaders, this hard decision. Being here I've realized and learned that in whatever and wherever you are in life, especially in ministry areas, you need to be whole heartedly, full on commited. And it's something that the Lord decided to bring me all this way to learn, and I'm totally okay and at peace with it. My heart is not whole heartedly involved and happy being here in Europe doing the ministry that we've been doing. And coming face to face with that and processing that I can say has been top 5, one of the hardest things I've had to deal with and process. And it's also grown me, once again, in a sense to completly trust the will of the Lord, and sit back and be at peace with what He has decided, even if I'm like WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON!?

I know it may come as a shock, it is to me as well, but it's something that I feel that is best for myself, and my team. I will never forget the times I had during my training in Perth, or the times I've had during a week's time in Paris. I have learned, and grown into a new woman during my time with YWAM. I am so thankful and blessed to have met the people I've met, to have endured the things I have endured, to learn the things I've learned, and to have strengthened my relationship with the Lord, like I have.

Of course a part of my heart aches, because all of this means I have to leave my team, the 4 students, and 5 staff that have gone through these last few months with me. The team that has seen me at my absolute worst, and have seen me at my absolute best. They all have been a true blessing in so many different ways. They are people I will never forget, and will hold a special in my heart always. I am not a Hallmark card, but I speak nothing but truth!

I leave tomorrow, my 19th birthday, ha who knew! Can't help but smile, but what a 19th birthday! It will probably be a mix between the best birthday, (who can say they had their birthday in the morning in Paris with an amazing group of people, but also had their birthday in Minnesota, home.)and the most not so awesome birthday because I'm going to have to say goodbyes to people that I don't know when I'll ever see again, or if I ever will.


Oh life, what will I make of you? Excuse me, oh Lord, what will you make of my life? Haha, whatever it is, I know I have a new out look on life, and have teachings under my belt to do whatever it is. I'm excited, yet scared to see what is next. For now, it's my last day in Paris, and I'm content with that.

See those of you at home, see you very very soon :) and those of you who I have just met during this season-I bless you to the max. and I pray and hope to see you one day soon in the future!

'However Jesus did not permit him, but said to him, 'Go home to your friends and family, and tell them what great things the Lord has done for you, and how He has had compassion on you'.'

-Mark 5:19

Love you all-xo

Destination=Reached

Finances=Reached in not even 24 hours. That's a testimony in itself. I am so blessed and grateful for all of my friends, family, and strangers who blessed me with money so I could get here to Paris. Once I got all of my money I didn't even know what to do with myself except tell everyone, and tell them what a great God I have!

So it was on :) plane tickets bought. My packing had been done for a few days, which was just reassurance that I was going to get my finanes...soon..and get to Paris...soon. So I didn't have much packing to do. Itinerary read=Flying out of Perth, connected to Sri Lanka, Dubai, then to my final destination=Paris!

Our first lay over in Sri Lanka was about 8 hours. & boy was I the minority! The whole time being there I think I saw about 6 Caucasian people. It was very interesting watching how Muslims live, even just seeing them in an airport. They couldn't help but stare because of my white skin, or maybe it was because I looked like I hadn't showered in days, or that I was curled up on the floor in a sleeping bag trying to get a couple hours of sleep before we were off to Dubai! Dubai was a quick layover which in the time I sniped up some Mickie D's and boarded the plane to my final destination, Paris.

I arrived last night. I was hot, sticky, and SO ready for a shower! It was about 10pm and it was still super light outside. Paris looks just like the movies, beautiful buildings, busy streets, mo peds, small fruit/veggie shops, and of course the shimmering Eiffel Tower which is only a hill down from my apartment where I am now living with my team. I like Paris so far, and I've only seen what is outside my window. I could fall in love....

Paris looks like the movies, but as we all know appearance isn't everything. Paris, but France in general is a very dead country. With a sky rocketing statistics, and numbers, France has a very high risk of divorce, sexually active teens (age lowest as 13), depression, loss of jobs, poverty, and so much more.

It's why we are here. To be the hands and feet for the nation, to bring hope, to bring the Word, simply to be a Light.

I am excited to see what God has in store for my team, the cities we'll be visiting, and for myself. God has already planted this seed in the last however so hours I have been here, a quiet spirit. I am usually not a quiet spirited type person, usually all over the place, always something to say, but I'm curious to see why the Lord has planted the seed.

This morning when I woke up I was so at ease and peace. Didn't really have anything to say, but thanks God. Thank you for the fiances, the view, my team, this city, this experience to come

.....for everything.

Miss you all-xo



P.S.-God is so good.