My God is an awesome God

A week's time to raise a little less than $4,000 for my outreach to Europe.

SPAZ, no sleep, stressed, daily surrendering to the Lord, trusting He will provide, doubting Him, repenting, highs and lows. All this diminished this morning during base worship. Every Monday the base here at YWAM Perth get together and have an hour session of worship, then usually listen to announcements. The Holy Spirit took over this morning, and our base leader insisted that we battle and pray for the finances that about 30 or so of us still needed to see. So me included, needing a little less than $4,000 stood praying for everyone around me. Those of us who are still trusting for finances had a piece of paper with the amount we needed and then people who already had their finances or people who aren't going on out reach (staff) started blessing left and right! The Lord lead heaps of people to give money. The Lord provided $1,672.45 for me!

It was such an amazing Monday! The Lord totally refreshed me in so many different ways! I was uplifted, and made me eager and excited to get the rest of my finances which is about $2,300. I am needing the rest of my finances by Wednesday night, and I'm totally trusting the Lord that He will provide in miraculous ways as He did this morning!

This has been a huge part of growth while being here. The spiritual battle for finances are a tough one, cause sometimes He'll hold the money til the last minute. Who knows maybe that will be my case, if it is, I will still give Him all the praise!

Europe..so soon :)

I don't sleep at night

It's true, I don't seem to sleep at night anymore. Could be because of numerous reasons.

-Excitement that I leave for France very very soon

-I miss my friends, family, home

-It's so flipping cold (it's winter here in Australia FYI)

-I need $4,500 in a week

-Curious about the future

-I've been sick lately :(

It's been a rough last couple of days. Probably cause I am tired, and I do miss home a lot, and it seems to be crunch time with finances due in a week. My feelings are all over the place. Some days I'm ready to pack up and go home, and other days I'm like ARE YOU CRAZY, I wouldn't have life any other way! I just have to bring myself back to His promise. God's promise, when He spoke, 'You'll go, you'll go back into the nations.' It's such a comfort knowing that the God of the universe took the time to speak to ME of a promise. Who knew that His promise would first lead me to Australia for a three month long intense discipleship training school, then send me to Europe, to fulfill a destiny that He had planned out for me even before I was born.

Paris, France is where I will be for my 19th birthday. How awesome is that :)

Thank you Lord for blessing me with a promise. Xo

It's been how long?

Time is a crazy thing. In some cases it flies and in other cases it creeps. With my time here in Perth doing my DTS somedays I feel like the day is just creeping, and I look at the long run and I won't be in Europe for another 3 or so weeks, and I won't be home for another 3 1/2 months. But at the end of the day I feel like I've only been here for a few weeks! And it's been a little over two months! And if you have been keeping up with my blogs, I hope you can tell and sense that God has been doing amazing things here, and in my heart during my short time here. They say that the material, teachings, applications, and everything in a 'normal' time it would be like 5 or so years of going to church every Sunday, and by the time I leave for Europe I would have gone through it in only three months.

Intense

Only word I can think of ha! I am excited to get to Europe. I've never been and I'm excited and eager to see what the country is like. Even more excited to see what is going to happen, who my team and I are going to meet, what kind of testimonys we will come home with, how many salvations we will see, how much more I will grow..

I keep having to repent of down sizing God thinking, okay I've grown this much and I've gone through that, I think I'm done and there's not much more God can do! But he proves me wrong everyday. Some days God takes me, or speaks to me about something a lot more easy than the day before, but either way He's speaking and I am continuing to grow!

I bring myself back to Jeremiah 18, in a couple of sentences it's just God asking,

'Can I not do what the potter does?'

Whoa, of course you can Lord! It makes you step back and be like yeah, I trust that you can do what the potter does, and EVEN MORE! You can do better than the potter, you can create better than the potter, you can shape better than the potter, you can mold better than the potter! It's a great thing to stand on, and something I definitely need to humble myself in and trust in Him that He is going to continue to do marvelous things with me and for me in the next few weeks here in Perth, and continue to do so in Europe.

Love and miss you all :) Blessings.

Father Heart of God

This week in lectures we are being spoken to about the father heart of God. How to look at God as a father and how to reach Him as a father. It's been a great week so far and I already feel like God has been revealing Himself in a couple ways.

A lot of people on my team come from great families, yet very broken in the areas dealing with their fathers. Including myself, I come from a very loving, caring, supporting family, yet lacked any relationship with a earthly father. Growing up I didn't know anything different, and not til I got older did I realize how much it affected my life. While here in Australia, during different weeks I've been allowing God speak into my life about my situation with my father. I have learned a lot of God's character and how it is everything a father should be.

One thing I felt God speak to me today even, is that even during those times when I was younger, while growing up, and even today that an earthly father should have been there, my true and ultimate Father was there all along. I'm not that father less little girl anymore, I am a woman who can run to her Father like a little girl with a child like faith, and He will treat me like daughter in every way possible.

O Lord, you have searched me and known me; You know when I sit down and when I rise up, you discern my thoughts from afar.

You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways.

Even before a word is on my tongue behold, O Lord, you know it altogether.

You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me.

Psalm 139:1-6

He was there in all the past times with His hand upon me, and it will continue to be there in the future. It's a weird feeling, but so comforting at the same time. I am curious to see how the end of the week turns out and what else He will reveal to me..

I encourage you all to look at the Lord as your Father. If you have an amazing earthly father you are blessed! And praise Jesus for blessing you and your family with such an amazing man! Or if you share simliar backrounds with me and didn't have a father present growing up

--Know: He loves you, He cares, He cherishes you, He delights in you, He is waiting for you, and that He was always there, and He still is.

Love and miss you all! Blessings :)